I confessed my feelings to my crush
She told me that she wasn't ready for being in another relationship yet.
She said she got hurt so many times. Now she's afraid of love. Afraid of getting hurt once again.
But in the bottom of my heart, I know that I'm not her style and she just doesn't make it clear.
It was such a happy time for me hanging out with her.
I made her laugh, listened to her feelings.
She told me I was the one she felt safe told me about her life. feeling safe around me.
But I'll never be the one she shed her tears for.
I'll never be the one she has even a little crush on.
I'd never been the one she'd been looking for.
She's kewl, she's beautiful, she has a lot of satellites around. I know.
I was just some guy passing her life by in a moment. Why would she choose me?
Just a moment ago. I realized, that's it was all my fault. Shouldn't hit on her in the first place.
It'll be a terrible lie if I say I feel a little sad.
Because, I'm so fucking sad.
They said there'd be a day the lyrics of your favorite sad song come true, suit perfectly your situation.
There was a song. I've been listening for years. It's called "Wish we hadn't met", I have never thought of it as my clothes fit someday.
But it's happening.
I remember sitting next to her on the beach at nights.
Laughed together, talked together. Time passed by, we didn't care. or we just didn't want to.
Kissed her few times. She asked my why I did it? She said she didn't like it.
But it didn't seem that she was really mad at me or I just thought that.
I thought it wasn't a big deal. I thought she just said so but she had no problems with it.
It'd be a perfect sign for me to think that I was the one she'd been looking for to take care of her.
But I wasn't.
At the end, I was just a poor guy under the delusion that she liked me as I liked her.
But turned out it was just me and she's nothing but my imaginary girlfriend.
And I was nothing but a thing annoyed her, wasted her time. She actually said that.
Sorry for coming and talking to you that night, girl.
Sorry for wasting your time, girl.
Sorry for falling in love with you.
And thank you for the time I had with you.
For the moments I saw you smiled.
For the fake hope you gave me.
You have such a beautiful smile on your beautiful face, girl. That'll be the last thing I'll ever tell you.
You're an angel in life, you know that?
Sorry that I love you
"The way to die without actually dying is to love someone who doesn't love you back."
I love you and I hate you. You make me feel what is love and what is hurt. Now, i'm unbreakable.
After a fucking long day, before I fall in sleep, there is a person coming to be my lately thoughts...
... then it will be a longer night that I couldnt close my eyes!
Drawing you by color from memory
Sometimes, I wonder that could I say all the thinking about you in my mind to you? Maybe I will never meet you again, each of us has a personal passion... Don't say anything, it will be better for both you and me. I think.
The saddest part of life is when the person who gave you the best memories becomes a memory
Sometime you will never know the value of a moment until it becomes a memory
Source: From F145 with love
